What's weighing me down.

I feel completely uncomfortable in my own skin.  The skin has stretched into a person I don't know.  In fact, I don't see her when I look in the mirror. After taking a video of my "before" I realized I have let my body get out of control.  Is that really me?? 

Yes, I felt the pounds pile on.  Yes, I enjoyed the chocolate cake.  The cookies. The fries. Ever since the traumatic event of getting let go from my job (due to budget cuts) I've gone to the kitchen for solace. I've earned this physique to be honest.

Now that I realize who I'm actually looking at in the mirror, it's time to act.  It's time to control my eating and lose this extra baggage.  It's baggage of being sad.  Feeling unworthy.  Sometimes even hating myself. How do I let go of the comfort of food?

I feel the weight when I bend over to tie my shoes. I see the shiny Lycra showing in my shirts because it's being stretched. I feel the stretchy pants waistband dig into my stomach. 

I want to be better.  I want to let go of my comfort food.  What's holding me back? Food has become my partner in crime.  Food is always there when I need it. It doesn't break up with me because it's not ready to commit.  Let's face it, you have to eat so quitting is not an option.  Apparently, I'm very dedicated to eating!

I miss a body where I felt good.  I miss the glow of eating healthy. I miss chairs not squeaking when I sit down.  I miss how men looked at me when I looked my best.  

I'm doing a "glow up".  I've whitened my teeth.  I've gotten Botox.  I'm getting my Microblading touched up. I am reading a new book to improve myself, "You're a Badass" by Jen Sincero.  I'm going to the gym with a friend weekly as well! Now let's get the eating under control. 

 Let's start with portion control.  Let's go back to the basics of eating more vegetables and protein.  Maybe I've tried for the past 6 months to be too perfect.  It's not about perfection but about consistency! Let's do this!

xo,

Mandi

brokebitch scenerio#1225: #gratitude

so I read that to help eliminate negative thinking about a situation, you list all the things you're greatful for in that moment. Today is a holiday where people gather with their family...it's just me and G Michaels. My Mom passed two days after Christmas over 10 years ago. Every year I remember that Christmas. Every moment. My outfit. but now I move on to the project to eliminate negative memories... 10 things BB is grateful for Christmas 2013... 10.) G Michaels great health 9.) my good health 8.) playing radio. people say"you have to work on Christmas, how awful" what!? I get to play radio, who's working, well I do get paid ;) 7.) LULU, my car whos in pretty good health after 6 years together. 6.) Lisa,my former Big Sister(bbbs) 5.) the career growth in 2014!!!! 4.) starbucks being open on Christmas(it's my gift) 3.)Weight Watchers (I'm a lifetime member) because I need it in 2014 to regain my best self 2.)Adam Levine because he's pretty :) 1.)the opportunity to host my first Listener acoustic show, twice! Colbie Callait and the Fray! so take that negative day, situation or person and say what you're grateful for instead!

brokebitch scenerio #467 ask and you shall receive

so this morning I took this beauty(G. Michaels) to breakfast but brokebitch style.  I ordered the biscuits and gravy =$6.00 and asked politely how much would it cost for a third biscuit.  The waitress wanting a good tip(I tipped 30%) said she'd bring me one for free.  We both ate a meal for $3.00 each! The most important part of the morning was taking my Granny out to eat.  She was a very happy camper!

xoxo
brokebitch

brokebitch scenerio #444 #brokebitchweather=#sweaterweather

brokebitch scenerio 278: walking fail

brokebitch scenerio #708: peanut butter sandwich diet

when you don't have money to buy sweets, fast food and dinner out, you lose weight! I'm on the packing my healthy peanut butter sandwich diet,  5 grams of fiber whole wheat bread with 2 tabelspoons of peanut butter.  Usually when you pack your lunch it's after a meal so you pack a healthy amount because you're not hungry. It's the  fail to plan, plan to fail in motion. I've lost weight without dieting.  Hey if you're gonna be a brokebitch be a skinny one. Maybe I'll fit into old clothes in the back of my closet and have a brand new wardrobe.

you're welcome! ;)

Brokebitch
xoxo

brokebitch scenerio #267 Funny is Free Yo

So  this 2nd video on my #vine account at mandimichaels made me LOL.  I'm proud of making something out of what brings the most joy to my life but maybe not the "green" riches I want to see.  Happy people don't have better lifes, they make the best of what life they have. 

what radio looks like on #vine

xoxo 
BB