a brokebitch knows never burn a bridge...

I'd crawl across a bridge on my hands and knees before burning a bridge. Sometimes you have to swallow your pride and say it's water under the bridge. Washing out the bridge is never an option. You may need that bridge to reach what you want! It amazes me when people think they are better than the bridge. Life is funny like that, that bridge could be your next avenue to a better place. Life could be really funny, that bridge could be your last chance to get to the place you need. People are gonna have cracks in the bridge. Ya gotta suck it up and tough it out. Fix the crack with whatever you can do! Mending a bridge is free for any brokebitch. It takes words, patience and time. Free Free and free. Not fixing the bridge could cost you everything.

xoxo
MM
p.s. dedicated to a bridge burner. My policy is to never ever name names putting somebody in a negative light online. :)

Taking leftover food from work event for holiday party at friends house ;)

xoxo
MM

mas ChristMAS spirit...

(me and my friend, Sonya, who also donated to the cause with me)






I spent $35 I really didn't have to give two kids a christmas. I went to their home. A one bedroom, just big enough for a bunk bed like you had as a kid and a twin mattress and a 20 inch tv. It was like a hotel room. However this was their home. Dirty dishes with old milk lay around. I tripped over a bag of trash. Four people lived in a room smaller than my bedroom. The living condition was ridiculous. It was as if I stepped into a third world country. I'd say I'm lucky to have a home but I create my own luck with three jobs.

The dissapointment came when the mother barely spoke a thank you. She led us to her room like it were a chore. When we arrived,she stood on the porch of the house with a cigarette hanging out of her mouth and said ya I'm her. My heart sank. I spent my one christmas gift someone gave me on someone who could care less. However, you must give without judgement. If God picked apart every time I wasn't as grateful as I should be, I'd be in trouble! I put my heart into those gifts and am glad I did it. The kids are gonna have clothes that keep them warm. The kids are gonna have cool toys to distract them from their cramped one bedroom home. I did good.

I've forgotten what's it like to open a present. The joy of tearing the paper. The excitement that comes up like a little butterfly of joy and gets caught in your throat letting out a squeal. I'm happy I gave that to someone else.

I guess it's a happily ever after. It just isn't exactly what you see in the movies. The family jumping for joy and throwing their arms around you in gratitude. It is what is. Merry Christmas. I hope you had presents to open and you genuinely thank the person, no matter if it's diet pills ;)(aka my brothers gift to me a couple years ago)

<3 MM

Brokebitch

Brokebitch visits local high end dealership for free breakfast.

xoxo
MM

See Mandi do good. See Mandi play. See Mandi get.

I've always thought Karma really exists. Then my Justin Timberlake sang about it...."what goes around comes around" then I knew it was true!lol. I've always tried to be the bigger person. I've always been too honest for my own good doing the "right" thing. Today a gal I helped in radio gave me a job opportunity. I didn't help her to get ahead but because I throughly believe in helping someone. I needed this today cause I woke up frustrated with life. A bill insurance wont cover. A job where I feel unappreciated. A broken dish that belonged to my roommate. No car for my trip back home to Indiana. fail! Then I said I'm gonna unfail! lol So I found a deal at enterprise to rent. I made dinner for the roommate in apology. I'm gonna call the office that billed me and communicate to see what we can do with the bill. I used what I had, my personality and doubled my goal in sales at Clinique. Money talks. My supervisor called to say someone high up in Clinique said "my friend says Mandi is the best Clinique girl and she won't stop if Mandi's not there" We all have the days are sales will suck, we wanna throw in the towel but we have to remember the days we doubled our sales goal, got a job offer, and found a killer deal. Maybe Popeye does exist because I did all this after eating spinach for lunch!? See Mandi do good. See Mandi play. See Mandi get.

brokebitch scenerio #22 Ray Lamontagne lesson

me and my co worker at G1013 Dave Snow....
I heard Ray Lamontagne and loved his raspy folksy voice. Jennifer Aniston, my faux bff loves his music as well. Today I saw his cd for sale when I went to splurge on my addcition Starbucks and remembered how my coworker Dave bought me his Cd's for Christmas one year. He had to order them! He listened and knew I secretly wanted his music. It was a great moment for me. How thoughtful and wonderful this gift meant to me! I realized as a brokebitch I had so much that I've forgotten about. As I listen to Ray Lamontagne I look to my left and see a colorful artsy plaque saying "follow your heart" from speech team students I coached. On the wall behind me is a painting made for me by my granny's bff. It's sunflowers whimsically blowing in the wind with lavender matting, my favorite color. To the left of my computer there's a curios george mug from a girl I knew for a week at speech camp in high school. She thought I was funny but naive like curious George! Speech camp was kinda like band camp minus the flutes, lol, we just use our mouths ;) Great things are all around us if we look for them. it's easy for our vision to get blurry with negativity but I'm bound to dream my reality. I will keep dreaming to be better by seeing better things.... and to say a Goodbye to Brokebitch.

brokebitch scenerio #21 dreaming keeps me believing in the everyday

If you haven't, you should read The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. It inspired me to be a better me. One of the key components of the inpirational guide is a vision/dream board. I made a new one today. I wrote 5 goals to achieve by December 2010. I posted pictures of what I'd like to become as well. I will recite and look at my vision board every morning. I saw someone post as their FB status "one should put put on thoughts like they put on clothes" ah ha moment! Henry Ford said "If you think you can, you can". Rhonda Byrne says thoughts equal things.

I know I'm a successful person but get caught up in the everyday drama so I need a reminder too. I'm one of 9 people on the number one radio station in Raleigh. Huge. very big. I'm lucky. Although, I took a chance to get on at G105...my thoughts aided in me landing the gig. I made it up in my mind I was going to work at G105 even before I met my boss Randi. On February 25, 2009 I told a friend I was gonna move to Raleigh and I really liked G105. I walked in with my resume/tape in April 2009 and talked to Randi. Randi was the ONLY program director that spoke to me that day. Of course being the smart job seeker I sought other stations. However, G105 was the one I visited first. I also meticulously planned the G105 trip, I knew Randi went on at 3 so I knew she probably got to the office about 9 am. So while I had THOUGHT I would work at G105, I physically made it happen!

Some days I cry myself to sleep because I think about what I don't have. If you measured my life with my bank account, possesions or family...it wouldn't be worth much. However, life is bigger than all of those! Dreaming for me is living. Dreaming makes me believe in the everyday.