brokebitch scenerio #22 Ray Lamontagne lesson

me and my co worker at G1013 Dave Snow....
I heard Ray Lamontagne and loved his raspy folksy voice. Jennifer Aniston, my faux bff loves his music as well. Today I saw his cd for sale when I went to splurge on my addcition Starbucks and remembered how my coworker Dave bought me his Cd's for Christmas one year. He had to order them! He listened and knew I secretly wanted his music. It was a great moment for me. How thoughtful and wonderful this gift meant to me! I realized as a brokebitch I had so much that I've forgotten about. As I listen to Ray Lamontagne I look to my left and see a colorful artsy plaque saying "follow your heart" from speech team students I coached. On the wall behind me is a painting made for me by my granny's bff. It's sunflowers whimsically blowing in the wind with lavender matting, my favorite color. To the left of my computer there's a curios george mug from a girl I knew for a week at speech camp in high school. She thought I was funny but naive like curious George! Speech camp was kinda like band camp minus the flutes, lol, we just use our mouths ;) Great things are all around us if we look for them. it's easy for our vision to get blurry with negativity but I'm bound to dream my reality. I will keep dreaming to be better by seeing better things.... and to say a Goodbye to Brokebitch.

brokebitch scenerio #21 dreaming keeps me believing in the everyday

If you haven't, you should read The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. It inspired me to be a better me. One of the key components of the inpirational guide is a vision/dream board. I made a new one today. I wrote 5 goals to achieve by December 2010. I posted pictures of what I'd like to become as well. I will recite and look at my vision board every morning. I saw someone post as their FB status "one should put put on thoughts like they put on clothes" ah ha moment! Henry Ford said "If you think you can, you can". Rhonda Byrne says thoughts equal things.

I know I'm a successful person but get caught up in the everyday drama so I need a reminder too. I'm one of 9 people on the number one radio station in Raleigh. Huge. very big. I'm lucky. Although, I took a chance to get on at G105...my thoughts aided in me landing the gig. I made it up in my mind I was going to work at G105 even before I met my boss Randi. On February 25, 2009 I told a friend I was gonna move to Raleigh and I really liked G105. I walked in with my resume/tape in April 2009 and talked to Randi. Randi was the ONLY program director that spoke to me that day. Of course being the smart job seeker I sought other stations. However, G105 was the one I visited first. I also meticulously planned the G105 trip, I knew Randi went on at 3 so I knew she probably got to the office about 9 am. So while I had THOUGHT I would work at G105, I physically made it happen!

Some days I cry myself to sleep because I think about what I don't have. If you measured my life with my bank account, possesions or family...it wouldn't be worth much. However, life is bigger than all of those! Dreaming for me is living. Dreaming makes me believe in the everyday.