brokebitch scenerio # 14: worth more than a bank account...

(my rewind moment, Jim who actually got my autogragh,lol, he was just too cute!)
when you're stressed out about money everything is MAGNIFIED. It's understandable because EVERYTHING cost money. I walked around Lake Lynn today which on the surface appears free but it cost me $1 in gas to get there and back. It's frustrating not being able to get a coffee when you want one, especially when you are working almost 60 hours a week making good money. Life happens. You get behind but the bills continue. I've looked for a pause button, there isn't one. It would be nice if life could be as convenient as a remote control. Hit play when you're ready for another dose of life lessons...rewind to the good parts of life and replay...stop when life gives you a new challenge... but nope. No such invention yet. lol

Today I let a situation become magnified. I let people determine my worth today. I left feeling unimportant. People are all about themselves. Why would they think about anybody but themselves? When I wake up I think what is Mandi gonna do today? I don't think hmmm...who's gonna need me today and what can I d0? It's only normal. So why would I let someone not thinking of me determine my self worth! People do at TIMES think of others but for the most part, it's what do I need to get done next. You have to remember you're important and use your mind as your remote control,rewind to a success. Remind yourself you are worthy. I know being in radio I make somebody happy. I will rewind to past listener emails and pictures like the one above with listener Jim to regain my self worth. What will you do?

~MM

brokebitch scenerio #13: free is yumo

read the fine print cause it could be a FREEBIE. I bought lunch yesterday because I forgot mine. I spent the last $2 I had for the week. However, after looking at the fine print at the bottom of the Moe's receipt I saw FREEEEE joey burrito after you take a survey. I can take a survey. Two minutes=free lunch! Maybe I'll wear my free panty Victoria gave me last week. It'll be a celebration of FREEdom. ha ha. I heart free.

MM

brokebitch scenerio # 12: friends give you value that's priceless

Electricity $100...lite ice cream $2.50...Friends priceless. Monday my friend Lanell treated me to a day at the beach. It was the best day ever. I laughed a lot. I applied extra anti-wrinkle cream cause I smiled so much. I went to a movie for the first time in months and met Senator John Edwards. He watched the Bounty Hunter with us. Okay he was not next to us but three rows down! It was as if he stepped out of People magazine. It was so bizarre but fabulous. Oh and I know you want to know, he was alone(ha). Money couldn't buy that experience. See, friends are priceless.

Brokebitch Scenerio # 11: Money isn't my only value...

Money can be a measurement of success but surviving the abscence of money can also equal success. This week I got a free full size Aveda bath salt for my birthday from the store. I also received a free pastry at Starbucks. Let's not forget my bestie Victoria giving me a free panty. I almost missed the free card for Aveda because I was bogged down with all the bills. However, two days ago I faced the music and began sorting my mail when unbeknowest to me for the past two weeks, there was a postcard for a FREE $20 value bath salt from smelly good Aveda. I guess the lesson is to LOOK for the fabulousness that will arrive in your mailbox next. In the even bigger picture: what fabulous happening could arrive in your LIFE next? Focusing on what I don't have just makes me feel worthless when in acuality I'm worth a whole hella lot! I inspire people with my survival skills. I've survived two parents dying before I graduated high school. I was the first in my family to graduate College with a Bachelors degree! It's sometimes hard to remember past successes as we get sucked into the daily grind. In "Pretty Woman" Vivienne said "it's easier to believe the bad stuff than the good, ya ever notice that". Refocus and remind yourself of your good. In saying this, I don't regret my last post. I hate to post negativity because I think it's counterproductive and mostly doesn't help others. I don't want to experience negativity so why would others wanna read it? However, I'm human. I want you to know everyday isn't sunshine and cupcakes(with zero calories) but; with a little hope and faith, sunshine will be pouring in with an overflowing amount of yumo cupcakes soon.

~MM

Brokebitch scenerio #10: I'm paying to work...

I have to pay the state of North Carolina to work. I owe $100 because I drove to work everyday for the past 7 months. I understand my bank account is not a reflection of my contribution to the world. However, my heart hurts because my contribution isn't tangible. Money is an easy way to measure success. According to this measurement, my life is worthless. I find it hard to believe I'm worthless. However, my heart sobs.

~MM

Brokebitch scenerio #9: tears....of Hope?

I cried today while filling up my gas tank with my last $2. One dollar was in pennies. The cashier laughed. Another guy offered a hug. Here's what I offer:
"How do I change? If I feel depressed I will sing. If I feel sad I will laugh. If I feel fear I will plunge ahead. If I feel inferior I will wear new garments. If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice. If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come. If I feel incompetent I will think of past success. If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals. Today I will be the master of my emotions." ~Og Mandino

~MM

Brokebitch scenerio #8: I am rich...

When your down to $1.00 in your bank account; be optimistic. I had to work 15 hours Saturday at Clinique and Radio. I LOVE both my jobs. I'm extremely lucky. However, 15 hours and a bad night's sleep=Starbucks. Rhonda Byrne wrote in "the Secret" if you think you already have something; you will. I kept thinking Starbucks will surely send me a reward from my registered Starbucks card. I went to my mailbox Friday and there was a FREE drink coupon for my birthday from Starbucks! I have three days to go in my $1 account balance and today I began to panic on what I would make for dinner, grant it I won't starve but...it seems you become very hungry when you don't have food! You want what you can't have! I'm also a healthy eater except for the occasional chocolate mishaps. In my mailbox today? A free pizza coupon!!!! It's whole wheat crust too. I'm keeping the faith that riches are on their way. Hey I just earned a free pizza for moving to my condo! I am rich. Rich with positive happy moments in this crazy situation called life.

~MM