brokebitch scenerio:2224:you know you're a brokebtich when...

You go to your townhouse community gym to read the FREE People magazine...hey I wore workout clothes, ;)

BROKEBITCH scenerio #4567: KARMA is alive...she's so pretty to good people...

Karma is my bestie.  When I had money I gave a lot.  Now I'm the one who needs the help.  I'd much rather be the giver. It's funny how people look at giving.  We all, including myself give to big organizations like preventing breast cancer(did) pediatric brain tumor foundation(did) and diabetes foundation(do and did) but what about the girl sitting next to you tired from working several jobs? What about the girl who would grab you cup of coffee but lives paycheck to paycheck? I understand you can't just start handing out your hard earned money but maybe the best charity is right in front of you. When I had money I would take friends out for dinner when they were short on cash but never thought instead of $100 to fight a big cause like breast cancer I could of helped her electricity  stay on while she struggled to make ends meet. 

Karma came knocking on December 27th. I will NEVER forget that day. December 27, when I was 18 was the day I had to unplug my mother's breathing machine and let her be at peace in heaven.  On December 27th 2012 I was trying to find a place to live. I had to be out by the 31st(she gave me a month's notice during the holidays mind you) So my lovely friend Rebekah said I could stay with her for a month and put my stuff in storage.  I was asking around for a storage unit when a woman I know but not well asked what was happening. I explained that my roomate(owner of the townhome) asked me  unreasonably to leave after her plumbing caused a leak.  She claimed it was my over usage of toliet paper and it had EXPANDED in the pipes and overfload to cause water damage.  True story. I can't make that up. 
Karma came around the corner a few minutes later and asked how to spell my name.  I spelled it not even thinking what was going to come next...a check for a significant amount of money.  I teared up and said "are you serious?!?" she said a couple years ago I was in a tough time and my coworkers came up with a donation and while I'm not rich I have the money...pay it forward.

PAY. IT. FORWARD.

I posted this on my FB and my friend Rebecca posted on her page that I needed a roomie and she found me a lovely girl whom has a brand new town home in a great neighborhood.  I KNOW that good deed catipulted Rebecca to write her status.  I bet that post has other great stories attached to it as well. My heart smiles. 

I had people say what did you say to that former roomie who was unreasonable and kicked me out over the holidays?  I said nothing.  Someone once told me you get nothing from negativity.  If I told her she was unreasonable, she wouldn't believe it  She would just doubt herself for a moment.  I suffer from my own self doubt and wouldn't wish it upon anyone.  She's not a bad person, she's just ignorant.  So I chose to take the higher road.  I let her have the deposit.  I didn't leave a note saying it was hard to live there because the washer was broken, the microwave broke(which she partially blamed on me too) and she questioned how much I did laundry.  she posted the electric bill(I paid $500 which included everything) yet the bar chart showed the house used the same energy the previous year but she still insisted it was me causing the bill to go up.  No, that's North Carolina in July.

I aspire to pay it forward whenever I can in 2013.  I hope you do the same.

Mandi

brokebitch scenerio #1225: santa said no.

Santa wouldn't even take a nice pic with me as he told me "I can't help you" REALLY?!

So I decided to go to the Nutcracker to have a little holiday cheer with friends.The tickets were ones a listener didn't pick up(brokebitch friendly)  The night before I get a note from my roommate who decided she didn't want me to live in her house anymore telling me I had til  the 31st to get out. So I thought maybe I shouldn't  enjoy myself at the Carolina Ballet.  I left the tickets under the outside door mat for a friend and the next morning I decided I wasn't going to let someone who's ignorant and thoughtless to a season that should be about giving ruin my day.  I picked up the tickets and they were wet so of course I put them in the microwave to dry. Um. not the best most clear decision I've ever made in my life.  They turned black and I was for sure we wouldn't see the ballet that day.  However, Raleigh Memorial were unbelievably nice and issued us new tickets. The ballet gave me hope that if I focus on the good in life maybe I could steer my way to a better 2013. 

I focused on getting us into the ballet with blackened tickets and we did.  I didn't let a woman who thinks a clogged toliet led to a leak in her plumbing ruin my day. I know my roommate is ignorant and unreasonable but I'm the one facing eviction with no place to go.  I left my "safe" bubble of my hometown to fufill a dream.  I gave up time with friends and fam to be here and make something of myself.  I gave up money I had to use to move across the country.  now I'm brokebitch.  I refuse to pack up and go home with my tail between my legs.  I was the first to graduate college in my family. Go Ball State Cards! ;)  I was the first to leave Indiana in my family.  I was the first to not settle for getting married and having kids just because that's what society expects of you. I think it's great if you want kids but not so great if they are not for you as in my case.

I"ve learned a lot from my sturggles.  I can live without Starbucks. Although when I do indulge I make sure I get the most for my money. For instance if you put $5 on a registered sbux card(go to starbucks.com) you get a free drink in the mail.  Then every thing you purchase you get a star.  So if I want two drinks for instance I order my first one and run my card. Then I say Oh I forgot I need to get a second drink for a friend. ;)  I ran my card twice getting two stars!  Then I look at each cash register to see if they have a survey lying around(when you fill out you get a $1 off and it takes 2 min online) so often they'll give me the surveys noone wanted to take the time to fill out.

I've learned to be thankful for my Job.  I always say YES. If my boss wants me to work on Christmas I say yes.  Now you also have to have a life too so you say yes but...  I actually think that'll be one my NY resolutions to not be such a workoholic.  However, it's part of me. I've always had a strong work ethic.  So yes I'm the only one here on Christmas day BUT I get NYE off.  That's a holiday I like celebrating.  So I can't feel sorry for myself, I'm doing what I love and frankly because I don't have parents or kids I would be doing nothing today anyway. The other positive point is now my coworkers can enjoy time with the family they do have. So frankly I"m like Mother Teresa up in this piece ;) lmao

 My former speech coach who died of cancer always said "suck it up and tough it out" So I will do just that.  It's a new year in a week and I will focus on my triumphs of 2012 for more in 2013.  I met THE Courteney Cox.  yep I talked about my clogged toilet but she gave me a hug.  ;)  yep, that happened.  It's me and you know what if I weren't the quirky me I wouldn't of ended up in Napa Valley interviewing THE Courtney Cox.  So, even though I probably wouldn't of talked about my clogged toilet if I had to do it over...it sure makes for a great story!  I went to preview THREE Broadway musicals with DPAC.  I've loved Broadway since my Mom bought me tickets for Christmas to see Marie Osmond star in The Sound of Music.  I'm lucky. It's easy to get down when people like an ignorant roommate make you feel less than.  However, I get to play radio everyday for a living.  I'm not stopping for an ignorant woman who apparently doesn't get how fabulous I am! ;)  I can only stop myself  from winning by letting negative people get to me!  Ok so I talked to Gavin DeGraw about getting beat up in New York City...not the best thing to say but It's because I'm Mandi, I say what I think and sometimes it's funny and sometimes it's embarrassing but in the end it's  a GREAT STORY. I'm thankful for meeting Gavin and he followed me on Twitter so apparently he didn't hate me for bringing up the fact he got beat to a pulp. 

SO, Santa shook his head no and turned his back on me saying he couldn't help me. um true story.  My friend Rebecca who took the picture said she'd never seen  Santa do that.  I asked for a new home and a man and  he said "I can't help you"  Well I guess I don't need negative people helping me anyway.  I've got me.  I think I'm pretty capable of making 2013 a success, plus Santa goes back to the North Pole anyway ;) lol  I read a blog from a radio idol of mine, Chase Murphy , he said "Take yourself seriously and set real goals. Working towards the success you want, opposed to wasting time trying to find the exit, is far more productive and healthy"  We try to hit the fail button because it's easier than trying to win.  Blowing off an interview so you don't have to challenge yourself with a new goal or job is so much easier.  They wouldn't of liked me anyway.  Going home is the easier choice.  I have so many friends and family but the unfortunate part is I see a more successful future for myself and I know my break is so close I can smell it or maybe that's my cup of coffee...either way it smells achievable and yumo.

cheers to SUCCESS in 2013 to all my brokebitches.

Mandi

brokebitch scenerio #1219:nostalgia is priceless

dear Jiffy Corn Bread, I heart you. ;)

I've had a brokebitch day. I had two Credit card companies call for money which dwindled my account to $100 until Dec 31! I'm sick and know I can't think clearly. However I walked through Kroger searching for something comforting. medicine, no, I have it.   Tea? I don't know what kind to buy.  Then I saw it Jiffy corn bread: $.49!!! Mashed potatoes pre made at $2.50 and green beans $.65!  I could eat this combo for days and be happy.  I'm an Indiana corn fed girl.  I didn't realize this til today as my blurry vision led me to them.  I got home and the crunch of the corn bread and feeling of the warm melted butter warmed my heart.  It reminded me of my Mom when she cooked every meal when I was a child. Some times a brokebitch needs nostalgia to bring her back to pounding the pavement to make dreams come true and become a richbitch!

CHEERS
xoxo
Mandi

brokebitch scenerio #121212: KISS Keep It Simple Stupid...

above is one of my many dreams to interview hollywood stars, AMAZE.(cast of Cougar Town)

KISSFM is where I talk my talk and get paid to do so, which makes me feel oh so lucky everyday. I love kissing and it's free, thank goodness! So as I made the best darn grilled cheese with three cheeses that were left in my fridge, it hit me,KISS: Keep It Simple Stupid! K.I.S.S. is the evergreen advertising slogan.  I don't need a fancy shmancey Ruth Chris meal to make me happy.  I need to appreciate the simple things I have right in front of me.  If I had fancy shmancy food in my fridge would I think outside the box and mix three low fat cheeses together? Absolutely not!  I'd reach for the easiest fancy meal that probably would make my ass bigger and my bank account smaller.  Although, I feel like I'm on the struggle bus trying to pay my bills I appreciate everything more.  For instance, I never miss a class at the gym because that's already paid for and brokebitch isn't going to waste it!  When I had money I wasted gym memberships right and left, at one point I had two at the same time going to waste. I value my health knowing I don't have insurance.  So I eat healthier and exercise 4 times a week.  I appreciate friends more.  I'm greatful for each one of them and try to send them a text or happy FB message.  I sleep my full 10 hours a night because I have to stay healthy.  My heart leaped when I found $3.50 today, it was like I was a kid again, it's a great challenge to see how far it will go... bet if I Keep It Simple Stupid, it will get me to payday 3 days away, ay ay ay.  I dream a lot.  I see my dreams come to life in my heart and head.  Dreaming makes me believe in the everyday.


xoxo
Brokebitch 

 

Brokebitch scenerio #465: the PUSH

my actors on set of "Outside of Darkness"

After a weekend in NYC(trip from DPAC to see the shows for my listeners) I feel like maybe this is how it feels when a dream is coming true.  I've made it!  I can't go wrong with this thinking because thoughts equal things and it IS happening.  It's all because of the PUSH. You can stand in the frustration puddle of tears or you can let a friend or yourself push you to jump over the puddle!  It's the PUSH that helped me get here.

It was March and I didn't have enough coming on my part time radio DJ check to pay rent. I had sold everything on ebay or plato's closet.  I was in tears.  I wanted to crawl back to Indiana.  My friend Tracy sent me $100 to make rent then she that same week scored $400 herself gambling!  Karma bitches!  She pushed me into the clear.  Then the push came from my friend Rose.  She said you do makeup and I found a makeup artist job in a park in Raleigh for a small film.  I said I don't know, that something I've never done!  She showed up at my house and said I booked it now what do we need to do this!?  I said I've got all the stuff I just haven't done "movie make up"   She said I'll go with you and I'll run to get whatever you need!   The push.

So we show up and the people were awesome!  It amazed me the talent that was on this set.  I felt lucky to meet these artists.  The Macgyver move came.  They needed me to make the actors pale!  What!?  I have bronzer but pale?! I went into action and mixed white eye shadow with foundation and  tested it on my friend. The trick worked!  I was pushed to do something I didn't think I could do and I ended up finding something I was good at doing.  They've continued to rebook me and I'm very proud of the Webiseries "Outside of Darkness"

The push.  If I were never a brokebitch trying to live my radio dreams out I would have never answered an ad for a makeup artist on a movie set.  It turns out it's a great creative outlet for me.  I get paid to play with makeup, it's another dream come true without knowing it was a dream! Sometimes you need to hit the floor to reach for the stars.  If you comfortably float in the middle, why would you ever reach for anything else?!

the Push.  Hope you have the pleasure of getting the Push you need.

xoxo

MM